Tweak: Growing Up On Methamphetamines

Nic begins the grueling process of detoxing, clinging to Spencer and the 12 steps as “the only things I have” (131). Despite his inability to reconcile with the idea of a higher power, Nic writes that he trusts Spencer and that he can no longer “afford to question it anymore” (131). Spencer convinces Nic to go biking, a favorite old pastime, despite the fact that he feels physically ill and exhausted. He also convinces Nic to make a list of all of the things he desires out of life and promises that “in one year from today, one year, if you follow this program to the best of your ability, you will have everything you wanted and more” (134). Nic is skeptical but makes a list which includes getting healthy, getting a car, and having a career, a relationship, friends, and his family’s forgiveness.  

Spencer continues to help Nic, lending him money and answering his questions about recovery and the 12-step program. He encourages Nic to call his family, and to help others so “we don’t have to be thinking about ourselves all the time” (137). Spencer also takes Nic to meet his wife, Michelle, and his daughter, Lucy.