Our Sister Killjoy

Our Sister Killjoy, or, Reflections from a Black-eyed Squint (1977) is a novel by Ata Ama Aidoo (1942-2023). It was Aidoo’s debut novel, with an experimental style that switches between prose and free verse poetry. Aidoo, a Ghanaian writer, tells the story of Sissie, or Our Sister Killjoy, a young Ghanaian woman who travels around Europe before eventually returning home. She spends most of the narrative in Germany, where she befriends a young German mother named Marija. She also visits England. Sissie is frustrated that so many Africans travel to Europe to study or work but never go home. She deals with the alienation that comes with being a foreigner in Europe in the 1960s and questions common post-colonial attitudes in the African diaspora.

This guide uses the 1977 Longman Group Limited London edition of the text. 

Content Warning: The source text includes discussions of anti-Black racism and anti-gay bias. Instances of racial slurs have been obscured in direct quotes.

Plot Summary

The book begins with Sissie, the protagonist of the story, explaining how frustrating it is to try and argue with Black people who have fully internalized European rhetoric about the problems of the world. Sissie joins a study abroad program that takes her from Ghana to Europe in the mid-1960s. Her passport application is approved quickly, and she is invited to a dinner party at a European ambassador’s house prior to her trip. There, she meets an African man who speaks longingly of Europe, which makes her feel somewhat uncomfortable. She flies to Frankfurt via Lagos; on her second flight, the flight attendant makes racist assumptions about her, but Sissie does not protest. At a train station in Frankfurt, Sissie suddenly realizes that everyone around her is white, and that all of them see her as Black before they notice anything else. 

Much later in her travels, Sissie is staying at a youth hostel in a small Bavarian town. She meets Marija, the mother of a baby boy named Adolf. Although Marija makes many misinformed comments about Sissie and Africa, Sissie soon grows fond of her. The two meet frequently, and Marija always gives Sissie a bag of plums that she brings back to the hostel to share with the other members of her program. Sissie and the others are doing volunteer work in the nearby pine forest, ensuring that the trees are well-covered so that they will survive the winter. All of the events of the story are intercut with Sissie’s musings on life in Ghana, the politics of being a Ghanaian abroad, and the stereotypes and misconceptions that she has to deal with from Marija and others. For instance, Marija asks if Sissie is Indian, then tells her about two Indians who used to work at the local supermarket; she liked them both very much. Sissie reflects on the challenges people of color often face when they move to other countries, either struggling to make a living or becoming successful and refusing to go back home. 

Other people in town are very curious about Sissie and jealous that she spends so much time with Marija. To avoid scrutiny, Marija and Sissie decide to meet up later in the evening. Marija brings Sissie to her home; she is behaving a little strangely. Sissie realizes that she has never met Marija’s husband, who is also called Adolf. Marija kisses Sissie, who pulls back in shock. The two of them do not speak of the incident again, though Sissie admits to herself that she does have some romantic feelings for Marija. She considers European and African attitudes toward same-gender attraction. Sissie delays telling Marija that she is leaving Germany until her last evening. Marija is shocked and upset; she had hoped to invite Sissie to an elaborate lunch the next day. Marija comes to the train station early the next morning to see Sissie off. She gives her one more bag of food, including plums.

While in England, Sissie is surprised to meet many Black people. She is also surprised that many of them seem to be poor and unhappy. A lot of them are students who are dragging out post-graduate degrees to avoid going home. If they did go home, they would feel compelled to uphold the common narrative that life in Europe is a paradise compared to Africa. Sissie meets people from Scotland, Germany, and Wales who all claim that they understand her perspective as an African because their people have also been colonized by the English or faced varying kinds of oppression.

In London, Sissie meets a West African friend and his relative, Kunle. They discuss the news: Sissie wants to talk about the Biafran War in Nigeria, but the men want to talk about one of the first successful heart transplants. Kunle thinks that it is an extraordinary scientific accomplishment, but Sissie is disturbed that a doctor took the heart of a dead African man and put it into the chest of a dying white man, who in any case did not live long after the transplant. In a poem, Sissie notes that Kunle later died in a car crash. She imagines what his mother might have written to him in her letters and wonders how he would have felt if he knew that his heart was not used for a transplant. 

In the book’s final section, Sissie writes a long love letter to an unnamed man. In it, she lays out all of her thoughts and concerns about post-colonialism, African identity, the idealization of European cultures, and racism. She talks about how much she misses home, and the things about living in Europe that frustrate and sicken her. Sissie and the object of her affections have differing views on these issues. She describes the student union meeting where she and her lover first met. There, she asked several African men why they wanted to continue living in Europe instead of going home. They gave various answers: They could get paid more in Europe; they were unwilling to deal with widespread workplace corruption; they were already sending money back home; they were involved in caring for the African diaspora community in Europe. Although she could not always refute their arguments, Sissie was endlessly frustrated by their neglect toward their home. 

Sissie finishes her letter just as her plane flies over the northern coast of Africa. She will never send the letter, but that does not matter; she is prioritizing her relationship to her country over her former romantic relationship. As she approaches her home, her worries melt away.